New things for Drake

Well after watching Drake dance like crazy to SYTYCD, David and I have decided to find a toddler dance program for him!! I found one place but he will have to wait till he is 3 years old to start!! I hope he will be able to join a class after the summer classes have started, lets hope he will be able to!!



We are trying the whole potty training again and NOT getting anywhere *eyeroll* I think he actually LOVES his diapers, we are in soooo much trouble lol

I screwed my knee up yesterday so no bike for us for awhile, I can barley walk on it so I doubt ill be able to peddle a bike...this sucks!! I hate sitting here in this house, nothing to do but clean up after to HUGE 2 year olds....MIL and DH!! Mil left yesterday BUT made sure to leave me a HUGE fucking mess to clean, this is why my knee is fucked....went to move a box full of tools and one of Davids fell out and SMACK!! So MIL is gone now till HOPEFULLY Aug, I need this break more then anyone will ever know!!

Other then that its been a very boring week, we did pay tribute to a friend of Dhs on Memorial Day!! CPT Piche, you are also in our thoughts!! <3 <3

In Rememberance of Army Capt. Pierre E. Piche....29, of Starksboro, Vermont.
Piche died when two 101st Airborne
Division (Air Assault) UH-60 Black Hawk helicopters crashed in Mosul,
Iraq. He was assigned to the 626th Forward Support Battalion, 101st
Airborne Division (Air Assault), Fort Campbell, Kentucky. Died on
...November 15, 2003

Long week!!

Its been a long week lol if you havent noticed I changed my blog to adult settings :D Im a little mouthy at times heehee

On Monday Drake and I went on a 4 mile bike ride with Kelly and Mikah! We went down to the Wildlife preserve to see the ducks, geese and haring, got pics of all but the haring!! We had a great time and its a fishing whole right off the Colorado river!

My son Gregory mastered the stilts the other day it was great, my sister sent me all kinds of video and pics! He has grown soooo much since I seen him in Aug!! He will be here in about a month and will be here for 3 weeks!!




The rest of the week has been kinda of slow and sitting around the house, its been windy and really warm here...needless to say Drake has been a hand full, he is taking a little more now and im happy about that...NOW on to potty training lol

So now onto the holiday weekend, not sure what we are doing as of yet! My mil will be leaving on the 2nd and I really need the break *sigh*

How I look now, and when I was 210lbs

Me now May 10' Im down to 131 and loving it, pants fit better, I have WAY more energy!!


This is a photo of Drake and I while at Calico watching the battles!! I was 210 lbs Feb 09'

Not the same person I was!!

Things have changed greatly in my life, I had another m/c on Jan 11 of this year! Dont want to look back dont want the what ifs!! Life is about..... change, growth and family! Im ready to move on and not look back! May not be trying to get pregnant, but if it happens it happens! Im not gonna stress myself over charting, temping ect ANYMORE! We are just trying to enjoy what we have, if things change we are more then ready to watch and grow with it!!

Drake is doing great, he is starting to verbalize a little better, he is trying!! He is sitting at 30lbs and not sure about his height lol but he is getting longer haha He plays ALL day and beats the shit out of me daily cause he HATES the word NO but what choice do I have with a child that thinks EVERYTHING is his!

Gregory is doing great, his grades are great! He will be coming here for 3 weeks this July for his and Drakes bdays.....I cannot wait, this will be the first time I have my boys together for BOTH birthdays!! Its gonna be a fun few weeks, gonna throw them a party, take them camping, fishing and who knows what else trouble we can get into while he is here haha

David and I are slowly getting better with our relationship, its been tough in that department with living here, his mom doesnt understand....so evidently neither did David TILL I laid everything out on the line.....I told him right out, id be out of here if he didnt start changing his attitude, well he did but after some very hard conversations!!

Life here in CO is gonna take me more time to get use to BUT Im getting there! I need to get the hell out of this house MORE....but im not surer where to go lol Ill figure that one out also haha

PCOS Treatment and Awareness Petition

PCOS Treatment and Awareness Petition

I FUCKING GIVE UP!!!

Im done dealing with Drs. I have had enough of this fucking run around, I RATHER JUST DIE! That would solve ALL of this shit, then my husband doesnt have to be marry to a fucking cunt!!

I am NOT doing this anymore, the fucking stress isnt worth this, the pain isnt worth this, LIFE its worth this anymore!! I have been fucking crying for 3 fucking hours straight, with no end in site!!

The Drs want me to self refer myslef WELL they can go fuck themselves when they cant even give me the right numbers to call, give me a fucking run around so I LOOK LIKE stupid, WELL do your fucking jobs and I wouldnt be so fucking angry with y'all!!

Its the blind leading the fucking blind, this Dr doesnt even know how to deal with my issues, yet dont send me the right fucking Drs is gonna solve this shit?????


IM FUCKING DONE!!!