Hmmmm makes me wonder???

So I went to bed with David about an hour ago, boy was that one a mistake :`( WTF, im laying next to you crying and all you could do is tap me on the back and ask if im CRYING?? WTF, all I wanted was you to hold me!!

Im sooo depressed right now, I drank for the same stupid reasons I did 6 1/2 years ago........because I DONT FEEL WANTED BY ANYONE!! How many times do I have to tell you??

Im lonely, depressed and all you care about is how I hurt your feeling tonight.....HOW ABOUT MINE??? They havent mattered yet in 6+ years, you wonder why I am the way I am?? Think about it for 10 mins maybe you'll get it!!

WTF do you think I could forget about a relationship that started while "YOU" were still in elementary school!! This is the father of my child, he never cared about me and Gregory and now I feel im in the same fucking boat w/out the drinking!!

I have fucking feelings also, do you know what its like when your 11 year old son calls here crying his eyes out since he father hasnt called or written in over 2 years??? I hate the man BUT I also hate seeing my son so depressed over a man that could care less about him!!

I love you David, I wouldnt be with you if I didnt BUT seeing him do for his new wife what he should have been doing for Greg and I the WHOLE time is killing me!! How the fuck could you marry someone that is a heroin addict?? Once an addict ALWAYS an addict......Dick I have you to thank for the knowledge on this one SINCE I AM NOW considered a recovering addict!! Thanks fuck face!!!! If I hadent been drinking ALL of your beer ALL of those years to keep you from ABUSING your (so called wife at the time)wife and child!!

Oh im soooo fucking glad Iris, you think he is gods gift I HAVE NEWS FOR YOU!!!! Dont tell me I didnt warn you, DONT HAVE KIDS WITH THAT MAN!! He has 2 already that he GAVE UP and signed rights away!! You both claim you love Mandy and Greg WELL if that was the case IRIS you would have talked him OUT OF RE-JOINING THE ARMY!! See and thanks to you Iris my son doesnt have a father anymore, you made him re-join so you didnt have to be in Maine anymore since THEY ALL know you are a fucking tweaker from HELL!! Kiss my ass you scanky fucking bitch, oh and Dick DONT EVER THINK YOU WILL GET "MY" SON!!

Not happy, feel unwanted in my own home and would like to take my sons and run the fuck away!!!


I HATE YOU RICHARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!