Im drunk

Yup, im sitting here killing a bottle of Jagger.....prob not the best thing right now BUT its all I got!! Lets see here, Monday was my u/s with the Ob's office.......I say with since I never got to talk with an actually OB Dr!!! I have been told only one thing....no to get preggo anytime soon.....hmmmm wonder why?? I do know some faces were made between the two techs that I didnt like!! You know something is up when they dont let you watch the damn thing!! I hate going into a place where I cant get answers till a week later! I miss Maine more then anything right now since ALL of my tests would have been done in ONE office and not this whole....come here do tests BUT wait FOREVER for test resulsts!! So this Monday is my Drs visit to find you whats up with my body, still DONT think they will be able to get an answer since my Dr told me right out to NOT have the my testing done on CD3.......OH NO wait till the following week when the tests will come back inconclusive blahhhhhhh I HATE DRs!!!!

Oh and did I say I was getting drunk, yup I have finished off half a bottle of Jagger on my own! I could so get on a plane in 25 days and fly home to Maine to kill my ex-hubby want to be father of the year......get a grip buddy, if you wanted to be father of the year you shouldnt have signed your parental rights away to re-joined the damned Army!! Love my soldiers BUT not this low life scum of a want to be dad!! He has been gone to Africa for 15 months, never once called or wrote a letter to my boy!! WTF would he even want you as a father when you dont care about him!! ALL you hate about deployment is missing you ex-heroin wife and you fucking cats......UMMMM hello you have 2 children that I bet would love to see you and know their father!!! AHHHH WTF ever, you are scum....NO I will never tell your son that SINCE he figured it out on his own!! SEE those are some good genes MINE damn it!!

Love you Gregory, remember that mommy is ALWAYS here for you 100%!!

Will update when I get my test results on Monday!!